Depressives vs. Alcoholics (and the bi-polars don’t count) pt. 3
Thursday, February 21, 2013
III. I wake up to bright lights shining in my face. I see nurse Ratchet standing at the door. “C’mon, let’s go. PT in ten minutes.” She states rather curtly. “What?” I question rather groggily. I rub my eyes and look out the window. It is dark outside. The soft round floods of orange beneath the outdoor lamps are barely enough to cut through the darkness. “What time is it?” I ask, looking back at her. “Oh four hundred. Put these on.” She holds out a pair of grubby sneakers as she walks directly to my bed. “You must be joking.” I state appalled at the idea of PT this early...
Depressives vs. Alcoholics (and the bi-polars don’t count) pt. 2
Monday, February 18, 2013
II. “I should have waited until Monday.” I mutter to myself while I stare out the window. I am not sure how much time has passed, but I can see soldiers heading home for the day. Shifts are over. “Must be 5 o’clock.” I continue muttering. This room is disturbingly quiet – except for the air conditioner’s motor and the loud click of the seconds hand on the mounted clock. I might have been feeling confused, frustrated, or annoyed recently, but this room feels like a prison, in which I am trapped. Thus my loneliness grows exponentially with each click emitted from the clock. I want to...
Depressives versus Alcoholics (Pt.1)
Friday, February 15, 2013
Who here has ever been ‘so bored you could just die?’ Raise your hand. Who here has ever spent time in a hospital Psych/o Ward? Raise your hand. Who here has ever experienced the second question because they attempted the first? Raise your hand. Well I have. You see, almost 20 years ago while stationed in Fort Hood, Texas, I attempted to take that faithful ol’ chestnut to task. You see, I was in the United States Army for roughly 4 minutes – no, wait, that was in a guy who was in the Army. Hmm… I digress. Read More
Hivster in the New York Times.
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Back in October the New York Time’s profiled me, my activism work and Hivster.com. “BRAD CRELIA was rushing around the vast media room at an international AIDS conference last summer in Washington, interviewing people for a series of articles on Hivster.com, a Web magazine he founded for people who are HIV positive. The ease with which he moved through the crowd made it clear he’d done this kind of political networking before: he’d worked first as a field organizer for Hillary Rodham Clinton and later as a regional field organizer for President Obama. Read More
Grindr
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Lying next to someone can hold so much power. It’s truly baffling how something life changing can be lumped together with a summer fling, the body remembers. Times of devastation, like that early summer morning nearly a decade ago. I was on the floor with my mom as she died. Alone, I watched the life escape her body. And death returned last June when I was awakened to the sound of my partner Michael gasping for his last breath. He was blue—past the point of saving. Death is pure intimacy. Experiencing it so personally has created a vacuum inside of me, I am constantly searching for someone...
How Capitalism Will Kill Us All
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
I’m Back. Brace Yourself. I left Hivster some months ago, and my. What months they have been. Since my split with Hivster, I moved back from Eugene to Seattle. Occupy Wall Street– and all the controversies and educational It’s not just my hair that’s changed. opportunities that sprang up with it– happened, and I began working with Occupy Seattle in their media team. Taking twelve credits and then Occupying full-time has basically been the focus of my life for the past six months. Brad asked me to start writing for him again, and along with re-establishing my column,...
Jameson And Spokane: Two Things That Will Never Be The Same.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
I was standing outside of a bar smoking a cig alone when a group of people passed me. I heard someone say, “Stop, that guy looks like he’s from Brooklyn.” In a town like Spokane, I guess that’s not something you pass by. They walked back towards me; we all introduced ourselves and decided to go in for a drink. Pabsts and Jamesons. Two or three rounds later, I was explaining to Michael that I had just returned from NYC for work and was actually in Brooklyn most of the time. We went to his place and I stayed there almost every night for the next six weeks. Michael liked to go out and was...
FEATURE INTERVIEW: Porn Star Mason Wyler (NSFW)
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
WARNING: THIS ARTICLE CONTAINS MATURE LANGUAGE AND NSFW LINKS BOB LEAHY INTERVIEWS ONE OF THE MOST CONTROVERSIAL FIGURES IN GAY PORN – THE BOY NEXT DOOR WITH A PENCHANT FOR NO-HOLDS BARRED SEX, OUTED LAST YEAR AS HIV-POSITIVE AND VIRTUALLY EXPELLED FROM THE BUSINESS Read More
Up, up and away. Hivster’s Interview with Dan Savage.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
In physics the shortest distance from point A to point B is, of course, a straight line. Something tells me, Dan Savage’s line isn’t straight. Its trajectory, however, is definitely up. Read More
Happy Birthday, Mom.
Sunday, February 3, 2013
I was sharing a bed with my mom for a few weeks, my dad switched with me because mom and I were both severely ill at the time. We both were getting IV morphine and nausea medication, along with TPN, which is a backpack filled with a milk-like nutrient substance. All of these medications attached to us via tubes connected to our port’s which were implanted beneath our skin to the right of our hearts. Read More
B. Frank’s Greatest Hits
Thursday, January 5, 2012
By now you’ve heard the news that newly retired Massachusetts House Representative Barney Frank has asked Gov. Deval Patrick (D) if he could (temporarily and just until a special election is held) fill United States Senator John Kerry’s seat after his current term ends and Sen. Kerry begin the process of becoming our next Secretary of State. Barney Frank will be remembered for the many bills and many battles he willing engaged to ensure that the queer among us are treated equally under the law. Frank would become the second out gay United States Senator in American history Read More
Life
Depressives vs. Alcoholics (and the bi-polars don’t count) pt. 3
III. I wake up to bright lights shining in my face. I see nurse Ratchet standing at the door. “C’mon, let’s go. PT in ten minutes.” She states rather curtly. “What?” I question rather groggily. I rub my eyes and look out the window. It is dark outside. The soft round floods of orange beneath the outdoor lamps are barely enough to cut through the darkness. “What time is it?” I ask, looking back at her. “Oh four hundred. Put these on.” She holds out a pair... Read More
Culture
These Emo Kids DO Have Something To Cry About.
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Some truly upsetting news coming out of Iraq this week where groups “alternative” kids are been singled out for being “emo” and literally beaten and stoned TO DEATH.
Personal Stories
Depressives vs. Alcoholics (and the bi-polars don’t count) pt. 3
III. I wake up to bright lights shining in my face. I see nurse Ratchet standing at the door. “C’mon, let’s go. PT in ten minutes.” She states rather curtly. “What?” I question rather groggily. I rub my eyes and look out the window. It is dark outside. The soft round floods of orange beneath [...]
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